After Party - Koffee Brown
nEXt (feat. Kid Ink) - Sevyn Streeter
Looking through my photo album and missing this Vegas trip so much. This is what happens when I have a slow (but good) shift so far… I look through my phone and get all emotional and shit remembering good times.
Throwback to Fourth of July weekend in Vegas to celebrate our 22nd birthdays! Only cause I miss her 😭
For some reason, I can’t shake off this feeling… Regardless, I’m trying to find the good in it.
"The earth laughs in flowers."
- Ralph Waldo Emerson.
Literally everything that I do is for me. To make me happy. To make me better. To get where I need to be. The only person I should ever and need to compare myself to is myself. I don’t strive to succeed in order to prove others wrong or prove a point or rather, I don’t ever do anything for the sole purpose of needing/wanting to prove something to anyone unless that person is myself. I have no interest in proving anything to anyone & this is in regards to whatever is going on in my life, whether it be about my career, my body, my relationships, what have you. In all honesty, doing otherwise is a pretty shitty way to live.
I do not wish to be better than anyone else. I do not do things in order to attain bragging rights or so I could snicker and “rub it in your face” that I have what you don’t, I’ve done what you haven’t, or I’m here and you aren’t. The only people who do that are those not happy with themselves; those are the ones who are suffering. The only person I do wish to be better than is myself.
Everything happens for a reason. I’m prone to making mistakes over and over again in this lifetime… But every mistake I make gets me one step closer to where I need to be, where I’m meant to be. As long as I learn from it, move on from it, and do better because of it. I know where I need to go & the direction I need to take in my life. I know how to get there and I will. At my own timing, at my own pace. This, I will prove to myself for my own well-being, for my own satisfaction, for my own happiness. Why should anything otherwise matter? What good will it do for me?
I’m happy where I’m at now. I’m happy with the progress I’ve made with myself. It only gets better from here.